Thursday, 25 November 2010

Take a Deep Breath


Since my last post, I've found it very difficult to gather my thoughts together well enough to write again. Things move so fast. Both of my brothers moved away to university (two different sides of the country), dad has decided to sell up AGAIN and move back to Camberley and I moved back in with them.


It's a lot to deal with; with an added work load, feuding parents, a house move, feuding relatives, a sick old grandmother, an eight year old who doesn't know if she's coming or going... Not to mention a dog and the financial constraints of having three of us at uni.


My mind tells me to relax. It's all under control. I meditate 'Har Har Har Har Har Har Hari' 'Tuhi Tuhi Tuhi Tuhi Tuhi'. I go to Maharaaj and feel comforted. I feel better. I think I do.


My body on the other hand, just won't have it. I'm told stress is the cause of a variety of health problems which creep on me.


It used to be, when I was stressed, the world would cave in and anger would take over. Krodh was my biggest enemy. Now, it seems the mind has retreated into it's own world and the body doesn't have the strength to withstand. It's ever so slowly... crashing. The more I try to ignore it, the worse it gets. The more I try to fight it, the worse it gets.


I know that none of this matters. Illussion. It's not real. But my body just won't listen. how do I control my body? I do everything right. I exercise, eat right, get my vitamins, drink my water.


Which brings us to the question of Karma. Whatever is happening is within Hukm (The Will). There are still some things we just can't control. So we can only accept it, and go with it...

naanak aanae aavai raas
O Nanak, as is The Will, things are made right.
Guru Nanak Dev Ji Siree Raag 25

7 comments:

ShaheedSar said...

Now only if we had a 'LIKE' button here ....like FB...

How all people,if not all than atleast majority of us go through same situations at same time....

and then we can just say...

Wahe-Guru
The Wonderful Lord....and His Wonders.

Gupt Singhni said...

It's extraordinary :)

ShaheedSar said...

We can call them 'Extraordinary wonders' of The Wonderful Master.

Somewhere deep, at level of consciousness, We are all Same.

Gupt Singhni said...

Tis Saaheb Ki Tek Naanak Manai Maahe
Jis Simrat Sukh Hoe Sagle Dookh Jaahe

Read it daily. I wish it would actually sink in!

RUPI said...

I agree with ShaheedSar completely my 1st reaction was to click like realising there is none. So many times i want to put my thoughts in words about what i hve gone & am going through but cant. U r blessed tht u write so beautifuly SJK. Love all ur posts. Keep it up. Waheguru ji will bless u with the strength required. Rabb Rakha.

Gupt Singhni said...

:-)

Mai said...

Yeah, it's all illusion, sort of. Still when someone slugs you in the stomach, it feels real and needs to be dealt with.

It's hard to just step back and jap naam, but that helps. I find that saying ardas also works, especially saying it for something seemingly unconnected to my discomfort. Right now, I suggest Bahrain. The good people there need massive blessing and the world's attention is on Japan.

But you wrote this months ago and maybe these problems have cleared up by now.

Good. New ones will come up, I promise.

Guru fateh!